Its rare that i get enough time to think this much about the world i live in. I must say i do love many things about it. My friends, my family, my daughter and my girlfriend and the experiences i have had over the years and the people i have met. The main story of this post is the world i live in and how growing up makes you forget about the little things in life everyday that you or I take for granted. Sometimes as you get older you get caught up with your job and the stress of everyday life that it affects the way you live. Your attitude and outlook and overall health.
Its easy to let your job take over your life especially when it is such a big part. But me......
I get overwhelmed with my job and it effects the way i spend time with my girlfriend and my daughter. I always enjoy the time we spend together but wish i had more. Really id like to be more positive about my job and what i do but i really see it as just a job. I don't see a promising future in it (in Virginia) but right now but it is the best way for me to provide a living for myself. It definitely not what i thought i would be doing considering my hobbies now and what i loved to do growing up.
Most of these hobbies have taken a back seat to my grown up world. I would love to be doing something else i enjoy (for a living) and am always thinking of new ways to make this reality. Its seems the more and more i think about it, it seems to be more and more just a dream. I have been thinking more about this today as I've been watching a show called car crazy. The show i have watched many times before bc i love cars. Simple and plain. In the last four years the actual hands on love for this hobby of cars has taken a back seat to my lack of funds and more or less poor planning. Cars have always been a love of mine and are to this day. My first, second and third car were hobbies of mine i had tinkered with them and enjoyed doing it. Lately Ive been wanting to get back to this love and try to make it possibly a side job with the possibility of being a way out of Virginia construction. I need to take this more seriously and use better planning to improve my attitude on day to day living. It may take longer than id like but right now i don't really have much to lose!
Another hobby that has been lost to growing up and my job ( i believe) is skateboarding. Something that has always been a part of my life and the reason i am friends with a lot of people i know. Being that the last couple of years i have been working further and further away from home i have had less free time to do it. And as people get older not all of my friends still skate or have the time either. It is nice every once in a while to roll around and get a little exercise. I'm getting a little gut seeing as the most exercise I've gotten lately is getting up and down the backhoe at work. Its not as fun either! This is something that i miss and wish i had more time to do. I could do it if i didn't work so much and worked a lot closer to home also. It would get me back to doing the things i love and improve my outlook and positivity on my life.
I know that getting older i have to make some sacrifices growing up but at the same time i want to being everything possible to avoid this. I want to be doing things I want to do not bc i have to. I want to do fun things not boring and worthless things!! I'm looking to the future to change the things i dislike about my life and spend more time getting back to doing the things i enjoy and spending more time with the people i love! Fuck a boring life you only live once you might as well like it!
